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Well life for me is actually getting better. I'm making more money, Now I can afford shit for once...I still think I might need to get a seconde job. Things with me and Dan are better than ever. We have our days though were we can fight. As of the whole Charles thing, well we are working on our friendship. Ashley also wants to work on our friendship seeing as if it was crushed about a month ago. We havent really been talking but hey at least were working on it. As for other friends and things, Mike funny as shit and he's been there for me and I thank him for helping me trough everything. Sara well lets say she scammed us by hitting dans truck and then her dad never even called us. So Dans alittle pissed about that. I dont get her really one day she'll talk to you than she'll not tlak to you for about 2 months and maybe than she will its like "are you my friend or not?" My puppy's getting really big too. She's almost 5 months and she's like 30-50 pounds but she adorable. Got to love her.
Well My health has been really bad and it sucks. First I had a bladder infection, a kedney infection, and tonsalitice(How ever you spell that). Now they think there might be more wrong with me...I'm just falling apart. Well I'll udate alittle later I've got to go to work we know how that is.
<3 Crystal Jean
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[24 Oct 2005|08:07am] |
Wow I actually decided maybe I'll update my live hournal....Well People my life has been shit. You can put it that way. One thing you should need to know I'm not goin out with charles anymore. Our relationship just wasnt ment to be I guess. He's changed so much from day 1 and today it could ahve been 2 years. Dont get me wrong I dont regret any of mine and his relationship because we had good times but 95% of the time was spent argueing and I just didnt want that. I tried to talk to him about it but it seemed like we couldn't even talk to eachother anymore. so what I did was that I stopped talking to him. I started to notice that maybe I should give up. So a while back I met this guy dan. He was like always there for me. At first it was like hey he's like my best friend I couldnt go out with him. But I started to notice that he was there for me through all the times me and charles argued all the times that I needed someone to talk to because charles wasnt there. He was like the old charles alot except for the fact that me and him werent even dating. He also helped me out....he let me use his truck...took me out to eat and we switched on and off with paying cuz I felt bad. But than charles didnt want me to talk to him well What was I supposed to do? SO I didnt. Well I found out by -SOMEONE- No names that he didnt give up talking to colleen at all and that he was just lieing he also told this person he chose colleen over me when I asked him who he would rather have, well of course he's goin to say me to me but to other people he said colleen, so I wouldnt know. I just got sick of being lied too. I figured hey I dont need to be treated that way when I have someone right in front of me that wouldnt lie to me for anything...(like charles used to be) SO after me and charles stopped talking I went out with dan. Now charles wants me back...now my question to all of you is, should I give up dan and go back to charles the one I onced loved and trusted? Or should I stay with dan and see if my life will get better with him?
<3 Crystal Jean
Please answer my question I would like to know your opioins......
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[24 Sep 2005|10:03am] |
Lifes been shity....I sure havent updated in here in a long ass time. Whats goin on in my life is that I'm single and I think I want to stay that way, I'm better off. Umm...Charles and I have been having problems like we usually do and everyone makes it seem as if I was the bad guy. Well sorry everyone it was both of our faults, if you would just look at the big picture and not just what I was saying it would all be good but nope no one in this fucking world wants to look at everything because they need some kinda drama and thats how they find it by butting in mine and charles's relationship like always. Guess that's what I get for having friends that just act like there my friends and friends that dont even want to tell me the truth and also friends that start things so that we get in fights. People are so messed up I wish that everyone would mind to there own business.
-Crystal Jean
P.s. Maybe this is best for us...Maybe we'll actually know eachother better like we used too.
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I'm sorry I haven't updated lately.....I have been going and going. Really to the point where I haven't stopped yet. I had a great beginning of summer. I hung out with a lot of my old friends such as Sara, Erica, and kayla. I also hung out with charles and met some new people......
I Met:
*Carly...She's a very cool person and very hyper
*Nick....He's a sweetheart
*Ryan....He's a egotistical jerk. I can't stand how he play's every girl.
*Bobby...Very funny guy. I Hope him and sara hook up because there so cute together.
*Matt....He never really talked and he left for work.
There were plenty more...but we had fun. It all started off like this. I spent the night at sara's and we left for St.clair the next morning. We really didn't do much that day because we didn't know that many people to hang out with and plus It got a little late. Well Vikki let me drive all the way down there and where ever else we needed to go. OMG sara drove but she's a good driver so you don't have to worry about waiting till she get's off the road to drive. LMAO! She know's I love her. Well we picked up Charles, Kayla, and Erika. Than went to go see my grandma. Later that day they went to go do there thing and I spent the night with charles and it was soo sweet we watched moves...did other things...and we ate. We had a nice little evening to our selves for the night. I love him so much. By the next day I had to go back with everyone else. We went to the cruise that day and that's when we met everyone. We met matt and Ryan when they were driving because we would say Hi to everyone. Than Kayla noticed that they parked on the side street and asked us if we wanted a ride. Well we new we weren't all going to fit so we all took turns. I know it wasn't the smartest Idea but at the time we were all having fun so we didn't care too much. Kayla wanted to go in there because she liked Ryan. So She asked me to go so she wasn't alone and no one else wanted to at the time so I went. We all drove around and than he called his friend Nick up..He was sleeping so Ryan told him to wake his ass up so he could come with us and matt could go to work. So we went back to Ryan's and Kayla and I were smart to just stay in the car so we did. Nick came out and got in the car and than we all drove to Taco bell because Nick was Hungry....Guy's. I Still Love my man so I don't care I was there for the company of Kayla. On the way there Kayla and I are thinking Ryan's Single and I was goin to hook her up with you know. Than we find out he tell's us to be silent. His phone rings and he picks it up and this is what he said..."Hey baby what's wrong? Why are you crying? I'm driving around with only Nick why? Well I Love you BABY...I Love you I love you.." Well Kayla was a little mad and I was pissed to the fact that he was goin to play her like that. Than we get to Taco Bell and Nick like "What?" I was like how can do...Well of course Ryan was outside talking with his g/f and we were inside talking with Nick. I 2-wayed Sara and they met up with us at Taco bell. I got out of the car and sara and Carly got in while Nick got out. So now it was just me, Erika and Nick walking and we Started walking back to Nick's house to pick up his truck so that we didn't have to walk and Half way there Ryan pick us up in his other car so that we all would be able to fit. Because you cant fit 5 girls and 2 guys in a Mustang. So we he dropped us off to pick up Nick's truck. So we all cruised. Than Ryan was being a dick to Kayla and stuff so everyone piled in the back of nick's truck. Sara met a few guys that were walking and asked the to join and that's where she met bobby and his two other friends. Nick realized he knew him it was weird how it's a small world. After all that we all went our own separated way's and hung up with different people...We all ended up meeting up at Taco Bell cuz thats are spot now. It was funny though because Carly was drunk off her ass. Anyways we all stayed up eating all night and talking.....Carly man you can sure Eat. LMAO! It was great the next day everyone had to go home. Sara and I decided well she likes Bobby so we'll hang out with him all day. He picked us up and we all went to his friends house. They were drinking I had one THAT'S it(SO charles doesnt get mad I just had to make that clear to him) Anyways...We ended up coming home late after the piston's game so we got bitched and Sara and I couldn't Do anything for 2 DAYS! LMAO. well Over all I had a very exciting time. I met new people and love my baby even more this week. Yesterday he spilled his heart out to me and I cried of course.....I just don't know what I would do with out him. We were arguing about things and I just wish i wasnt so moody all the time. I just don't get enough sleep anymore. Well that's all I got to say for now....I'll update soon.
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Well yesterday was very fun...except now I think I'm goin to get kicked out of ashley's house. I left around 12 o'clock with charles like I asked. We went to this baseball game for andrews wedding reception....It was fun except for than it started to pour. -lmao- Me and charles were goin to play baseball with them but I suck so we ended up goin on the swings and to the park. So at least we would have our time alone. Than I started to realize....."Is ashley mad at me for coming here?" I really hope she wasnt, so than I wasnt rally having a good time. After all that mob-e juble about 4 o'clock we went back to andrews uncles house.....OMG was it fucking funny. We were all fine up until they brought out the alcohol. Before that I was playing basketball, baseball with a bunch of little kids. Than here and there I would soalize with the adults to just see what they were talking about and Somethings I didnt need to know other things were weird. Well than everyone started doin shots. It got alittle carried away to the point where they were singing and danceing and two girls started making out with eachother....It was sick so me and charles left and went for a walk. Hopeing that they would take me home soon so that I wouldn't get in trouble. But they wouldn't. I had to wait for them to be ready to take me home....charles and I ahd to beg them to go and by that point it was already 12 o'clock. i wasnt getting home till 1. Thats why now I think ashley's mom is kicking me out.
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Right now I'm sitting here being alittle bored, talking to my baby on the phone...Nothin much has happend since the last time I've updated. Ashley's goin back out with Al so I'm so happy for them. On the other hand....I hate brandon Cornett. He's an asshole and always thinks he's better than everyone else. He doesnt care about anyones feels but his own. He decided to put in his profile a JOKE about poeple getting raped....Thats something you seriously dont make a joke about exspecially since it didnt happen to him. Than he wanted me to apologize to him, FUCK NO! I didnt do anything to hm but give my opinion and I guess he just cant handle the truth. Than he had the nerve to call me a slut, well guess what brandon you dont know me and I hope you never do because I never want to talk to you again.
I cant wait untill school is out. We have 3 half a day's left of school and thats it. Saturday, tomorrow I'm not sure what I'm doin yet. Other than that, monday I'm hanging with my baby. Tuesday me and ashley are goin to the beach...Eww I have to show my body thats sick seeing as how I'm fat. Other than that we have nothing else planned cuz I dont know when I work and I only worked one day this week anyways. I'll update more when something interesting happends...Love you allz!
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[Marital Status] in a relationship
[Shoe size] 6 1/2
[Parents still together] yep
[Siblings] yep 5 brthoers and 2 sister
[Pets]yupperz 2 dogs
FAVORITES
[Color] blue/black/pink
[Number] umm 69....lol no 24
[Animal] elephant
[Drinks] strawberry daqurie
[Soda] cherry coke
[Book] The lovely bones....Good book
[Flower] Roses...
DO YOU
[Color your hair?] yes I have black on the bottom and brown on top.
[Twirl your hair?] yeah when I'm nerves
[Have tattoos?] nope but i want only one.
[Have Piercings?] Yes I do I have my belly percied, three whole on each ear, and the top left ear done.
[Cheat on tests/homework?] who doesnt?
[Drink/Smoke?] yupperz/hell no
[Like roller coasters?] yes I do.
[Wish you could live somewhere else?] Hell no I live with my girl ashley.
[Want more piercings?] I have enough...
[Like cleaning?] sometimes depending on the day.
[Write in cursive or print?] I do alittle of both
[Own a web cam?] nope
[Know how to drive?] yes I do..
[Own a cell phone?] duh...
[Ever get off the damn computer?] hell yes when I fuck my baby!
HAVE U EVER
[Been in a fist fight?] yupperz...
[Considered a life of crime?]no not at all!
[Considered being a hooker?] no...but a stripper yeah!
[Lied to someone?] yes
[Been in love?] Yes....Still am
[Made out with JUST a friend?] Yuppez
[Been in lust?] alot and never again...sticking with my man
[Used someone] yes..I feel really bad, I was stupid.
[Been used?] alot and stiil do...by friends
[Been cheated on?] yeah
[Kicked someone in the nuts?] hell yeah
[Stolen anything?] yeah
[Held a gun] yeah learning how to shoot with charles up north!
CURRENTS
[Current clothing] bathing suit...:)
[Current mood] horny
[Current taste] idk
[What you currently smell like] curve
[Current hair] black on bottom, brown on top/ straightend
[Current thing I ought to be doing] hanging with my boyfriend but im on the computer doing this
[Current cd in stereo] ludacris
[Last book you read] the lovely bones
[Last movie you saw] amityville horror
[Last thing you ate] chips
[Last person you talked to on the phone] my baby charles!
[Do drugs?] nope
[Believe there is life on other planets?] umm idk never really thought about it
[Remember your first love?] yes I do
[Still love him/her?] yes I do his name is charles/ besides my grandpa
[Read the newspaper?] hell no
[Have any gay or lesbian friends?] Yep lotz
[Believe in miracles?] yes charles is my mircle
[Do well in school?] well a C/B student
[Wear hats] no
[Hate yourself?] sometimes
[Have an obsession?] yes, elephants and sex with charles
[Collect anything?] elephant
[Have a best friend?] yes my girl Ashley of course.
[Close friends?] ashley, sara, diana, aaron, eric, Tim, phil, paul.....more
[Like your handwriting?] sometimes
[Care about looks] fuck no
LOVE LIFE
[First crush] James Grissom
[First kiss] James Grissom
[Do you believe in love at first sight?] no..I dont date someone for looks.
[Do you believe in "the one?"] Yeah I have him now.
[Are you a tease?] hell yes!
[Too shy to make the first move?] yes very much so
ARE U A
[Daydreamer] yeah...about alot of things
[Bitch/Asshole] A bitch when I want to be.
[sarcastic] When I have an attitude.
[Angel] yeah!
[Devil] only in bed.
[Shy] sometimes...okay maybe alot!
[Talkative] hell yeah all the time
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance. |
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
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Well alot of things have happend....Me and ashley are grounded so I thought that I would update my live journal. The last couple of weeks since I've been out of my house we have had a blast. Charles came back to michigan and guess what he's back for good HELL YEAH! I'm so happy. I hung out with him on saturday when he came down here. Brandon picked me up. Well We went back to his house after we hit a few stores and I got to see his dad and JOEY again I missed them all! Most of all I got to spend time with my baby! When his dad left to go to his girlfriends house brandon went to sleep and me and cahrles decided to take a bath together.....you silly poeple we didnt do anything. I love him so much though I hope nothing will take him away from me.
Than on sunday...Ashley and I went to the fair and met up with charles and Brandon...That was so much fun I got my tan on also I went on the ride were me and charles finally actually started talking, it was great. After a few hours at the fair we all went back to charles's dad's house. We had peanut butter sandwhiches and listening to music. Me and Charles went in the other room and guess what I GOT LAID! HELL YEAH! Oh charles and I are also getting married we havent pick the date yet but I hope that its not to long from now. I'm thinking in 2 to 3 years. If you wanna come to the wedding just leave a comment.
The rest of the week I've just been sitting at ashley's house and we've been tanning and working out. Thats always been fun too! I cant believe its been 2 weeks and me and ashley are still goin strong. All I know is that we are goin to take a break with eachother and I'm hanging out with my baby while she hangs out with her's. This saturday too she has to go to her father's so I might just go with charles or with her I ahvent decided yet. Who know's. Well I'll update soon love you allz!
Plz no one take my baby from me I dont know what I would do with out him.....
♥ Love you Ashley Kay ♥
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[03 Jun 2005|06:25am] |
Wow how things change....I dont live in my house no more, I live with ashley. I finally got out. I cant stand living there and everyone knows it. I better off without a family anyways, not like I had one in the first place because its not like they talked to me about things and at least try to sort things out like normal people. They would rather say it goes there way or no way...well I lived there too and I think I should have done my share in making my decision. They wonder why I cant do anything around the house such as: Cook, clean, pump gas. Maybe its because they dont feel like taking 10 mins out of there day or even a half an hour out of there day to show me and help me at what I'm trying to do. They cant even take 1 hour out of there day to talk to me about things and than they expect me to do the same well fuck no. They touch me exactly what they wanted to teach me....be myself and not talk to anyone about my problems. Then she wonders why the rest of the family is all fucked up. They all just need to grow up.....All I can say is FUCK FAMILY. I dont want them and I dont want a family, its not like they took care of me they took care of my sister's. They love them anyways not me so I dont fucking care. I can do things on my own. You watch I'm goin to make it in life with out my family and I'm goin to PROVE THEM WRONG!
Charles is coming down here in 1 day, HELLZ yes! I cant wait too see him it seems like its been forever. I might be staying with him and his dad for awhile, than towards the end of the summer I think I move down there with him....MAYBE! Thats if he's not moving up here. I just dont know if I wanna leave my girl ashley. We are having a blast with this whole living together thing, its great! All the seniors left yesterday it was there last day and it was so sad.
I'll miss you all, at least the ones I knew such as:
* Heather Veo
* Jessica Munn
* Chris
* Webber
* Aaron
* Mark
* Steve
* Mandy
Well Thats all I have to say I will update soon...Love you allz! but most of all I love you Charles james tollon!
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Wow I havent updated in so long.....Anyways me and ashley have been very busy lately. Some how she has time to update her journal unlike me. Than again I also have two sister's that are always on here, not including my dad. Well where to start....Well I last stopped at may 1 so I'll go on from there.The seconde
May 2nd: Well me and ashley went to the movies with aaron, and randy....and some more friends that was okay. Alittle boreing because me and ashley felt alittle weird, we kinda didnt want to be there. Than me and charles started talking again which was okay, even though we were still argueing. I hateded it.
May 3rd and 4th: I went to work most of the day..seeing how me and ashley have been working like no other. That was mostly it for those two days because my mom wouldn't let me do anything. Lol!
May 6th: I went to work from 5-9....than I spend the night at ashley's house. We had a blast we were watching movies and we couldn't stop laughing....We are dumbasses. Anyways me and charles we also argueing on the computer and we ended up breaking up..... :[ He made me feel like I was nothing in this world. I guess we just fell apart. Plus no one really knew how bad he was treating me. They just thought I was the bad guy cuz I broke up with him once again. I hate that because people never know what we talk about when we are the phone or when we are together they just see us when we are together and they base it on that. They really should just mind there own business sometimes. Its people like them that people break up because there so damn nosie.
May 7th: Ashley and I went to the pool hall with tim....that was okay. Thats are thing man. POOL HALL ALL THE WAY. Ashley and I were so hyper. I think we have pictures of us kissing. lmao! At least I think it was this day it could of been one of the other day's that me and her went but that was so long ago. Well later that day me and ashley had to work from 5-9 and than ashley and I went to the pool again that night and than she spent the night.
May 8th: All day me and my parents argued......Ashley and I went to different store also the mall to buy my mom something for mothers day and something for her mom for mother's day. My parents arent getting along very much so I didnt want to be in the house and I guess my mom didn't understand that. So I went to ashley with her and gave her mom her present for mother's day...I got her flower's. I got my mom flower's, this big bear and more. Anyways I was there for awhile and than me and ashley went to go play pool. I missed dinner so amber called me bitching oh well I dont need to be even more stressed than I already am about charles.
I didnt really do anything on the 9th, 10th or the 11th because I had to work two out of three of those day's. Also on the 12th me and charles started talking again. Where still arent together though....On the 13th I also went to work.
May 14th: Ashley and I went to the hoe Down.....Wow did we have fun! Ashley and I drove sepreat from my family and it was so fun there. Ashley got grabbed by old people and there where old cow boys whistling at us. LMAO! The music was okay....I also bought a necklace, two belly rings and than one other belly ring for ashley. On the way home there were these ugly guys in this car next to us and they were asking us for our number and I gave them ashley's it was so funny they actually called her and asked us to this party and the party was by our house...whats the odds in that? Later that day when we finally got back to my house we got ready went to the pool hall.....with aaron, randy, tim, matt and some other guy it was so fucking funny I was so hyper. Me and ashley were taking pictures with us on the pool tables and I was stripping. Ashley also let me Drive her VAN that's a first. Lmao! Than me, ashley and jessica came up with the triple trio girls....that means where the three stripper's. Were so funny!
The rest of the week I mostly had work or I was goin to different places with ashley....We had to go to the store a few times and we also have been looking around for new jobs since our boss is fucking ripping us off by money. I feel like I'm always broke when I shouldn't be.
May 20th, 21st, and the 22nd: I went to work.....from 5-9 when it should of been from 5-11. After that i spent the night at ashley's. I also spent the night saturday the 21st.....I think we went to the pool hall one of those day's too. Anyways on the 22nd we went to the air show it was great we had a blast we did the marine challenge....My arms killed after that. Thats okay....We also go rained on and it was alittle cold there. Ashley got spread with water by this toy dog that was strolling around because she was laughing at it....Also we seen this huge Dog that was walking around humping little kids....It was so fucking funny. Also something happend between me and charles shh......cant tell. lmao! I love him!
May 25th: Ashley and I had an interview for Olgas that went great....LOL! We arent sure if we go the job yet but I dont think so. Its so hard to find a job lately. After the interview we went shopping and I spent $80 thats okay we had fun. We also bought these huge pixie stix's.....I forgot to tell you one day this month can't remember when but me and ashley went to the pretty little princess store and OMG everything was pink and purple...I was in hevean I felt like such a little girl again. They had sparkles everywhere and you could make your own lip gloss, body lotion....and everything.
May 27th: Ashley and I skipped school...We went to her house watched "Spanking the monkey" OMG he slept with his mom, SICK! We also talked to her insurance company about if it was goin to go up or not. We also took bottles back and I was goin crazy.. I thought my mom would be there..But than again thats me.
Ashley: I'm so proud of you...you did everything on your own and everyone thought you couldn't. You payed off your ticket, quiet smoking and you did it all on your own keep it up girlie. Also We have to go back to that store again....Love ya! We've had a blst this month and much more to come...BFF!
I'm sorry if I missed anything....Thats all I could remember.
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I havent really updated in awhile but thats okay.....I just really havent had the time. I've work probably everyday this week except one or two day's. That's what really suck's. Well me and charles have started are argueing again. As of yesterday, I guess its goin to be a never ending course thats in my life. Who knows, but than again it's always my fault for us argueing (As he would say.) I just wish sometimes that I could be in a relationship with someone without fighting with them everyday of the week. Maybe that will never happen. Is it because I out myself in this position.....I just dont know what to do with myself. I feel like I'm not even me. I'm sooo stressed, I got a shitty older sister, and fucked up family....and now I have no life of my own. All the time I feel like I'm breaking down inside and have no one to talk to about things. That cuz the people I talk to about things I'm usually argueing with or something and I just dont get it. I feel like all I am is bad luck and I dont know how to get rid of it...(If that makes any sense at all). Maybe if I just raise up enough money than I can move away from everything. Than I can start a new life. There's one thing I have to get straight for everyone now, and so I dont have to have charles bitcha bout his friends saying so much shit (since you know he cares about what all his friends say) Quote: ME AND CHARLES ARE NOT GETTING MARRIED!!!! Since we all know no one wants that to happend and sometimes I think neither does he. I have just now came up with the fact that I dont want to ever get married or even have kids at that matter. My lifes shit as it is and if that ever happends it will probably be a mircle.
I think I'm saying all of this is because I'm sick and tired of crying my self to sleep because me and charles are yelling at eachother on the phone. It's like every little thing we do we yell at eachother for. Like yesterday, I called him when I got home from work because I didnt talk to him all day because her was sleeping. So I called and his dad always palys around with me about different girls that call him (Which I wouldn't doubt if they did) Well I knew he was playing around cuz come on I'm not stupid. So I'm like "Why is she calling you" you like playing around and he flips out on me and I said what ever I gave up cuz I'm sick of this. He yelled at me for absolutely nothing. So I hung up and I'm not calling him back.....So charles if your reading this call me when you want to apologize, if you dont than fine I hope I'll talk to you soon when ever that maybe....Cuz we all know you never like to say sorry cuz you always think its my fault well its not this time.
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+ Known as: Crystal
+ Lives in: Roseville,MI
+ Birthday: April 19,1988
+ School: Roseville Highschool
+ Religion: christan
+ Shoe size: 6 1/2
+ Hair color: uhhh? redish brown?
+ Eye color: blue
+ Style: idk?
*Have you ever...*
+ Cheated on someone?: yes...never again
+ Been Cheated on?: yes :/
+ Fallen off the bed?: Yes lol
+ Had a dream come true?: yes
+ Done something you regret?: Hasn't everyone?
+ Cheated on a test?: yes
+ Got a hickey?: yes
*Currently*
+ Wearing?: my orange short shorts, my black tank top and my blue sweatshirt.
+ Listening to?: Alittle bit by 50 cent
+ Located?: in the living room.
+ Chatting with?: Charles, aaron, sean, and paul.
+ What you looking at?: the computer screen
+ What should you REALLY be doing?: Working out
*Do you...*
+ Brush your teeth?: well duh. Everyday, twice a day.
+ Have any piercings?: Ears & tragus also my belly button :]
+ Drive?: yes :]
+ Drink?: alittle
+ Smoke?: nope
+ Got a cell?: yes
*The last person you...*
+ Hugged?: Aaron
+ Kissed?: Charles
+ IMed?: Sarah B
+ Talked on the phone: Charles
+ Yelled at?: Charles
*Personal*
+ What do you want to be when you finish college?: Lawyer
+ What has been the best day of your life?: They day I started dating charles
+ What comes first in your life?: Family, friends & Charles
+ Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush?: yess a boyfriend :]
+ What are you most scared of?: Spiders....
+ What do you usually think about before you go to bed?: Depends on what happened during the day
+ Did you lose someone you really loved?: yes
+ How many times have you fallen in love?: Once & still in love thank you very much :]
+ Love your family?: NOPE
+ Love your friends?: Every one of them
+ Are you a virgin?: ...hahaha what do you think
*Favorite*
+ Movie: I don't have just one.
+ Song: You already know
+ Band/Artist: don't have a favorite
+ Store: AE, ABF, and spencers.
+ Relative: My uncle Tony and my grandma
+ Sport: Basketball
+ Ice Cream Flavor: Strawberry :P
+ Fruit: strawberry
+ Candy: Sweet tarts ;]
+ Day of the Week: Friday & Saturday
+ Time: lol idk?
+ Color: Blue & Pink
+ Name for a Girl: Lily
+ Name for a Boy: Lots! lol
*Do you...*
+ Like to give hugs?: yep
+ Like to give kisses?: to Charles :]
+ Like to walk in the rain?: when I choose to. If I have to, I'm usually pissed lol
+ Prefer black or blue pens?: Black
+ Like to travel?: yess
+ Sleep on your side, stomach or back?: Side
+ Have a goldfish?: nope
+ Ever have the falling dream?: all the time :[
+ Have stuffed animals?: Yes.....from charles!
*What do you think about...*
+ Abortion: sad & horrible & wrong
+ Suicide: wrong
+ Smoking: weed = do it for attention & to think your cool, cigs = gross
+ Eating disorders: :/
+ Summer: love itttt :]
+ Tattoos: I wish I had one
+ Piercings?: I think I have enough: a total of 8
*This or that?*
+ Pierced nose or tongue?: Tongue! all the wayy
+ MTV or BET?: MTV
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek?: 7th Heaven
+ Sugar or salt?: Sugar?
+ Silver or gold?: Silver
+ Chocolate or flowers?: Flowers <33
+ Color or Black-and-white photos?: color
+ M&Ms or Skittles?: skittles
+ Stay up late or sleep in?: both lol
+ Hot or cold?: i would rather be hot
+ Mustard or ketchup?: Both
+ Spring or Fall?: idk? spring i guess
+ Happy or sad?: Happy, sad sucks :[
+ Wonder or amazement?: Amazement
+ Mexican or Italian: mexican ;]
+ Pepsi or Coke?: coke:]
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Well My friends fucking suck.....My birthday fucking sucked too! You know you would think that my so called best friend would like to spend some time with me on my birthday, well I guess I was wrong. I got ditched at lunch and than she had to go to work because she need the money so she couldn't take the day off seeing how money is more important than our friendship. I guess thats the first thing that made my day go bad. Than I hear she is mad at me because I wouldn't walk around all day holding her balloons that she got me.....Sorry they do tend to get annoying after awhile, it's not that I didn't want to carry them. Than I got dropped off after school and she goes and drives around with jessica before work you seeing how it's my birthday and I guess she just didn't want to spend anytime with me at all. Then to find out my grandma bobbie forgot my birthday and so did my older sister. Wow life fucking sucks. I guess it couldn't of gotten any worse.
Other than that I sat around the house doing nothing but watch T.V oh and I had cake, which I wasn't in the mood for anyways. I did want heather to come over and have cake with me like she said she was but I guess something came up with her too and she couldn't come over.
As for my boyfriend....I'm sorry we argued AGAIN I know it was my fault this time I was just in a bad mood and I really didn't get to talk to you because I guess your grandma died and your mom was on the phone all day I just wish you would of talked to me on-line a little more. It's okay I'm over it now and I hope we can work out our problems and stop arguing for once like it used to be. I truly do love you and I don't want nobody but you in my life!
Wow and I got the biggest surprise ever.....Lauren called me!!!!!YEAH, me and her are talking again and I so happy we worked everything out and I said what had to be said. I can't wait until her birthday party cuz I haven't seen her in a long ass time. She might spend a weekend with me so we can catch up from all the times we didnt see each other. I feel bad that I never called her once I moved I just felt like she didnt want to be my friend anymore. I remember all those good old day's when we missed the bus so we could go swimming before school and how she would find every intension to make her neighbor(David) to look at her....That was like in the 8th grade. Also you cant forget about her birthmark that looks like a poop stain. lmao! Can't wait to see ya LAUREN!
Phil thanks bunches for talking to me yesterday and telling me no matter what your here for me. I know if you had a car you would had been here to keep me company, dez is a very lucky girl to have you and I hope that you guys last forever. Trust treat her like a queen and nothing less. Thank you for being a great friend to me and listening to me when I have a problem and have no one else here to talk too!
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The last couple of days havent been the best for me. I've been sick all damn weekend and it seems to only be getting worse. This is how my weekend went so far, Warning: It's not very exciting.
Friday: I had to go to work, which was like anyday of work except for that was the day I was starting to get sick. Well varnell decided to put a big bucket of ice cold water down my back which was not cool.....Now he wonders why I'm sick. Anyway's than ashley spend the night. Since my bithday is coming up and I wont be able to see her we decided to go to the movies. We were out till 1:30 in the morning. It was great.
Saturday: I was supposed to go to work.....I didnt. I was even more sick but didnt go in because I decided to go play putt putt with my mom and sister. That was fun even though I couldnt make any of them in the whole. LMAO! After that we got home and my parent's all decided to go out to eat. Earlier that day though me and charles were argueing....We seemed to be doing that alot lately. It was over something so stupid too. All I did was ask him how many girls have a place in his heart besides me becuase of his buddy profile and about his ex girlfriend who he clams will always have a place in his heart. Well For everyone who is reading this......"Caleb I know we dated for 3 years and it didnt work out like we planned it too. I just want you to remember that you'll always have a place in my heart." See if I would have had that in my profile charles would have FLIPPED. Anyways I guess to him I'm a different story because I'm the woman of the relationship. THATS NOT RIGHT! Well I'm over it now I just had to get the rest of my fustrations out. LoL not really I'm always fustrated.
Sunday: Well I dont have work and I dont really have plan's for today. Except for I'm sick, probably staying in bed eatting! Sounds like fun doesnt it and Guess what MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 2 DAY'S!!!!!! I cant wait. Hope I get lot's of present's. I'll update later on!
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Well I dont get me wrong I did go to school I just didnt go for the whole day. I had a very bad headach today and it seemed like it was never goin to go away so than I called my mom had her pick me up and I thought she would yell at me. She didnt....for once. Well I still wasnt speaking to her because of the way she was acting so it was a quiet long trip to my dad's work. We had to go there to fill her tire with air. My dad bought me ice cream! (Lol I love being mad at them I get what I want) SO while they were fixing soemthing I was talking to my grandma bobbie and reminding her that my birthday is in 5 day's cuz you know she forgot my birthday last year. So we did that and than my mom was sucking up. She's like "Wanna go to the mall" I'm like "Hell yeah" (What girl doesnt want to go to the mall) So we did that and for my birthday she got me:
*Piston's things for my room
*A 75.00 neckless
*A 40.00 earings
*A 20.00 pair of sun glasses
*A 10.00 anckle braclet
*And a case for my phone
So yeah that was fun doin that. After that she we stopped at toca bell so I could get me something to eat before I went to work. Which was like another 5 dollars. So she was really sucking up to me big time but I had fun. But I have to finish getting ready for work. I'll update soon!
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Hey everyone.....MY birthday is in 6 day's and I cant wait. Me and charles are getting along again, well some what. I'll be different when he comes down here for the summer to see me and than me probably moving in with him. But I got to love him even if he makes alot of mistakes. I feel bad for aaron, he's my really good friend and I know he wants to go out with me but I think that it would be best for both of us to be just friends. You'll be goin off to college I'll still be here plus I'm happy. Aaron I hope you can respect me for my feeling's......Your a great friend to me please I dont want you to stop talking to me just because me and you arent dating doesnt mean we cant talk.
As for all you bitches that are puttin shit in charles's live journal about you fucking him....Get a fucking life and stay out of mine and his plz. Oh and I'm not a whore you are! BITCH!
Ashley sorry about everything....I feel like I did something wrong and your trying to avoid me for some reason. If I did anything to make you mad at me I'm sorry! Oh and if you need money to help you pay for your car just ask me! Love you girlie!
I'll update more tomorrow!
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The last couple of day's have been really boring but exciting....I actually might be able to see charles over spring break becuase he might stay with me for a couple of days when we our on vacation in G.A. Than at the end of the summer I'm moving in with him so I'm ver excited. Anyway's the place that we are staying at in G.A is so pretty, We get a hot tub and it over looks the mountain tops. Plus its supposed to be warm that week that we are there and I get to share it with the one I love. I cant wait. I'm going to have so much fun the have horse back rideing, we are even right next to the river. See what makes me mad about all this is that my parents say they dont have any money at all so I buy most of my things but than they expect us to go on these vacation's. I think they have more money than they want to tell us and thats probably why my dad wont tell me how much he makes yearly, monthly or just how much he makes in general. It sux, it's like my parents dont want to talk to me about anything. I wish I just be like hey mom I'm getting married "To Charles" but its not that easy or else my life would be so much easier and I wouldn't have that much stress in my life.
Since Friday I havent done much but work. Oh, me and ashley our supposed to go to canada with linsday so that supposed to be fun and After that we are all staying at her house, and goin to work the next day...lmao I'm not sure if I want to go yet though because of me and charles. I'm such a worry wort now even worse than before. Now all I think about is what if I do this and what if I go here, Will it tear me and charles apart? I think everything will get better once I move down there cuz than we both will know exactly what eachother is doing also we can ask can I go here and of course the other will probably come to so by than I wont have to worry that much so that will be good.
Me and Ashley waitress again tomorrow and friday than we get payed on monday...My money is all going to be gone anyways because I have to get a hot oil treatmeant and I got to get charles that games he wants because I told him I would buy it for him. He wants me to send him the money but I dont mind spend some extra money on shipping the game to him. -LOL- even though I dont like him playing video games cuz last year he just didnt talk to me and ignored me when he played them and left me with his "dad" (bad idea dude....lmao I love you though) Anyways I give up on that I dont really care anymore he's got nothing better to do why he is down there it's just when he's on the phone he's been ignoring me but talking to his step dad, playing video games, or talking to people online.....It got so bad that I talked to him about it so let's see if it get's alittle better. Charles and I are tighter than ever, now though. I hope people understand that I'm not letting him go this time.
Ashley you my girl, Sorry about all the shit thats been happing in work. This year in a month or so if you still want me to stay with you for awhile untill I move with charles I will but dont get mad at me for moving there. I'll still stop by and say hi, plus will talk on the phone and everything will work out. I'll even go to Homecoming with you like you want me too. Love ya girl we'll be best friends forever I'll even make charles move right next door from you, or we'll let you move in with us. Lmfao you might have to wear eye plugs.....Or you can video tape..."NOT" lmao! So when are we goin to start planning the wedding? I have to evite a bunch of people. Mostly friends I dont want my whole family there because most of them are acholic's lol. One person I know for sure that isnt going is my uncle. I can just see charles killing him on our wedding day. Thats charles for you! Love you girl!
~*I have nothing really more to really put in here right now but I hope to update again soon! If you wanna come to mine and charles's wedding just comment and put your name and I'll invite you!*~
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